i
guess
eye
just
don't
c
the
point
of
always
writing
reality

eye
already
live
it

They are "do" art and I only think about it. I think about it a lot though, sitting at this here computer, cruising Perez Hilton, People, Just Jared, etc. I really do mean to write ETC because there are several more and I'm just too embarrassed to write them all down.

Where was I going with this? I was talking about "them, doing art". Lucky thems. Like I said, I admire that kind of life. So different from mine, but still something to be admired. Britney Spears the artist, the her-them. I liked it when Britney Spears dubbed her new album "Circus" as being edgy. She must of have said it at least 3 times. She also mentioned the word "fun" a lot and how a lot of things were "fun". I couldn't tell from her MTV interview if she serious or just had a limited vocabulary. But Britney "does art" and it's fun and edgy.

Mind you how would I describe my new album? Probably I would say "old school pop" too, come to think of it.

I'm dropping my new album too, on the 2nd, Britney's birthday. Actually it's the same day as "Circus" is being released. The blood between might start to boil, that is if she even knows me, but I know I'm pissed. We need to be competing, this I am sure of. Us and Them. Someone ought to blog about our pretend warring. That could make someone's day. That someone-them at their computer, cruising through blog sites.

Where was I?

the rubber head rest

I don't think I bend that way.

At least not when I try this at home. At least not when I'm warmed up. I mean, I haven't exactly tried this position before, but I'm pretty sure.

Thank goodness you used that sterile pen to put those ink crosses on my right foot.

Sure, I can count backwards. 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, nowhere

i need chapstick i can't move my foot hurts

I will undo what was just done. At least that is your opinion.

my lips are dry. it's bright. my foot really hurts a lot. sure ask the doctor. is that panic in your voice?

"What is your pain level?" uh, 4. But what's it out of? /10. oh, then i mean 8.

now where? around we go it's bright that must be a window or something

Hello?

3 Faces Welcoming Me Back.

Can I see a mirror please?

what is on my face? i look like a clown what colour am i? oh it's the vaseline i needed chapstick and she smeared vaseline i look fucked

Hello Again? You're Still Here?

Press - "beep". Press - "beep" i guess that's better and no i won't stop pressing the morphine.

in 10 minutes i will roll over. Press -"beep".

ticky ticky
9 days
only 1 outlet
born again
ticky ticky
soupy soap-eh
nine tails
one open theory
like it or not
ticky ticky
rickety rickety
the bunk bed is crickety
9 whales
1 library

Bamfield

Whales:
Grey
Humpback

Harbour porpoises
Harbour seals
River otters
Bears
Raccoons

Community
Boats
Fishing
Pottery
2 stores

not-so-adult things

Fountain of Youth:

reading Perez Hilton on a daily, sometimes hourly, basis
listening to punk
refusing to tame thoughts
craving ice cream
slouching
needing a birthday cake
loving the new Britney album
dressing up
spending an hour downloading ring tones
laughing when i probably shouldn't
abiding by the same curfew my mom gave me when i was 15

little thai place

New Favourite Restaurant:

chef selections
affordable
gang kew waan (green curry)
satay gai (chicken satay with peanut sauce)
open late-ish
open everyday
quick
filling
yum yum yum
mild-medium spicy
medium-very spicy
2 locations
dine in
take out
free delivery
www.littlethaiplace.com

root canal

Order of Events:

October
dentist
allergies: latex and nickel
first filling
(tiny)
November
pain
tooth shaving
dentist
December
pain
tooth shaving
January
Endodontist
irreversible pulpitis
(same tooth with tiny filling)
T3's
appointment
payment plan
allergies: latex and nickel
sedation (miss work)
dental dam
root canal
drowsy
more T3's
tobbi picks me up
miso soup
japanese soft food
sleep all day

adult things

Mature happenings:

baking beans from scratch
homemade soup stock
washing 4 loads of laundry
buying new sheets
ordering books off the internet
listening to CBC for fun
"shop talk"
reading EAT magazine on Saturday night
visiting tea shops
using a stove top coffee maker
purposefully eating low fat snacks
creating art
imagination
yoga in my living room whenever i want to
reading 5 books at a time
McSweeney's
Africa and Germany
drumming and singing
Elders
turning my cell phone to silent
owning an answering machine

at the movies

Sweeney Todd:

blood
razor blades
gurgly sounds
silver
gray streaks
sewers
meat pies
darkness
eyeshadow
sing songs
giggles
buttered popcorn
huge drink
holding hands
kathie o
tobbi
strange perfume
big music
drums
clouds
hairdos

friday

As a result of yesterday:

new coat
possible root canal
2 bowls of pea soup
2 trips to the mall
4 baskets of clean laundry
buttered popcorn
$15 of regular gas
walk in the rain

thursday

To do:

finish making pea soup
go to dentist
buy underwear
return necklaces
get liquid laundry soap
do laundry (?)
buy some cereal
clean the bathroom
put away gifts
read a little
email mentor teacher
go to 7:10 movie (juno)

groceries

Shopping list:

veg. stock 2
smoked tofu
carrots 4
celery sticks 3
cannellini beans
split peas
kale
black beans
maple syrup
popcorn
nutritional yeast
potatoes
soy milk
butter
onions
bananas
indian curry
zucchini
black beans
tomato paste
wheat germ
avocado
pecans